It means new beginning, the start of new chapter, the first page to a book or a fresh start in the morning. It has been roughly one month since I reclaimed myself from the past. It wasn't easy forgetting someone that you once let in to your heart.
The struggle was real, fortunately, I managed to get through it. Although, I believe that I had resented you deeply for replacing 'the me' from your heart but it was long forgotten.
The disappointment, the feelings of betrayal as well as the pain that I have suffered, they are all significant to me. I knew from the start. Yet, I kept quiet. I turned to a blind eye to what was going on, only to find out that I am hurting myself even deeper. At the same time, even as I tried to search for answers, I only received more disappointments and yet, even after knowing the truth, I took the wrong path I lied to myself. It wasn't difficult trying to look for comforting yet deceiving answers, I know it was wrong and I know I have to bear the ultimate consequences. To secure happiness, one might find themselves desperately climbing from endless pit of hole. It was a mistake after mistake but it made me happy. I was happy living in a lie, although only momentarily.
For a moment, everything felt like it was normal but what seems to be normal? If it is normal, have I been living in lies ever since the curtain opened? Was the whole episode.. a hoax?
Well, it doesn't really matter how I feel or what I felt. In the end, you are just a protagonist to your series and I am just a sideline character in your drama and in that deep-seated heart of that sideline character, the bits of you will always retain, although in scattered pieces. They will never be in one piece. Reason being so, was because, I only want to keep what's the best of you in my heart.
It also doesn't matter what's going to happen to us in the future, my message is clear. You are you and I am me. I am just another stranger who happened to cross your path and you are the same to me as well. Nothing has changed, it just returned to square one. The nature, by itself, will take some courses along the way, whether you like it or not, you gotta accept. It's just natural so don't bear hatred to anyone.
It has been a hell of a ride, I must admit, I enjoyed myself, a lot. Everything is just so memorable.
But none of it, should continue to exist.